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Sherlock Fic: I Wanna Hold Your Hand

March 26th, 2011 (10:05 pm)
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current mood: lethargic
current song: Epilogue - The Antlers

Title: I Wanna Hold Your Hand
Characters/Pairing: Sherlock/John, Lestrade
Wound Count: 850
Genres: Hurt/comfort (except mostly comfort), fluff, slight angst
Warnings: Mentionings of non-voluntary drug use and kidnapping.
Disclaimer: Don’t own Sherlock
Summary: John is drugged and loves Sherlock, Sherlock is worried and loves John, and Lestrade feels awkward.

They found John strapped down in a miniscule room. Sherlock was the first to burst in, finding John tied to a table and his breathing shallow. He was also the first to rush to John’s side, to take his pulse, and to breathe a sigh of relief when he discovered that John was not only alive, but awake.

John looked up blearily. “Sherlock,” he sighed with a dopey sort of smile.

"Are you all right?" Sherlock asked, breaking his habit of not asking unnecessary questions. He could draw his own conclusions from John's sweat stained tee shirt and the bags under his eyes. John had not been treated well here.

John grimaced. “Sherlock, he gave me drugs. I’m a doctor…but I don’t like drugs,” he said slowly. Then he giggled. “You do though.”

“Did,” Sherlock corrected, examining John's forearm. Sure enough, there they were, a few small track marks on John's skin. Sherlock didn't snarl, but it was a close thing. John was his, and they had done this to him. John was far too precious for his mind to be altered by whatever the hell he’d been injected with. Sherlock’s hand trembled with rage.

“Sherlock,” John said again, making the effort to focus on him. “I don’t feel good.”

He didn’t look good either. His face was flushed and his breathing was heavy. His eyes kept unfocusing, like he was having trouble keeping to the present.

“John," Sherlock said, trying to get his attention. "John, the police are here and the man who did this to you is going to jail." He squeezed John’s hand.

John looked at him for a moment, then looked past him and finally noticed the crowds of officers clogging the room and the hallway outside of it. Lestrade glanced at the pair, clearly concerned, and Sherlock gestured him over.

“When will the ambulance be here?” he demanded.

“Just called them, it won’t be much longer. Is he all right?” Lestrade asked, looking worriedly at John.

Sherlock opened his mouth to answer with something along the lines of, obviously not, you imbecile, but before he could, John grinned.

“’Course I am. Sherlock’s here,” he said, as if that was that. “He loves me, you know,” John confided in Lestrade. “He told me so.”

“Umm,” Lestrade said eloquently, unable to stop himself from glancing at Sherlock, who blushed slightly, but didn’t let go of John's hand.

“He does,” John protested. “Right, Sherlock? You said you loved me.” The questioning John felt was clearly starting to unnerve him a bit, and he looked nervous as he waited for Sherlock's answer.

Sherlock squirmed, but he nodded. “I did.”

“And you meant it, right? Sometimes you don’t mean things…” John was becoming slightly frantic, and both Sherlock and Lestrade shot a slightly awkward glance at each other. The drug had already agitated John, and this conversation was only making it worse.

Lestrade started to take a step back to give the two some privacy, but John shook his head. “No, stop, I don’t want to be alone again. I don’t want anyone to leave,” he said, clearly frightened. “Please don’t leave?”

The plainly desperate look on John’s face was enough to make Lestrade clench his jaw. “Sherlock, what did they do to him?” he asked.

“Drugged him. I don’t know with what yet, some kind of homemade mixture. I intend to ask them though,” he responded darkly. Before Lestrade could even begin to scold Sherlock, John shook his head rapidly.

“Don’t go near them, Sherlock,” John said, his voice still holding some command even in his current state. “They’re bad. They’re not good.”

“I know, John,” Sherlock said, nostrils flared. “They took you from me.”

John’s face lit up relief as his eyes mapped out the emotion on Sherlock’s face. “Oh thank God. You did mean it. You were worried for me.”

Sherlock shot a meaningful look at Lestrade, who looked from him to John and nodded. “I need to go see the ambulance in. I’ll be back, John,” he promised. He looked a bit relieved as he excused himself from the pair.

John didn’t even watch Lestrade as he walked away, eyes locked to Sherlock’s. Sherlock inhaled and pressed his forehead against John’s. “I still am worried,” he confessed. “They had you for over a day. They hurt you.”

John closed his eyes and breathed in. Sherlock’s presence seemed to have calmed him, and he smiled, slightly more lucid. “I knew you’d find me,” he said sleepily.

Sherlock leaned back and placed a soft kiss at John’s forehead, murmuring something which might have been I love you. John’s resulting smile was dazzling.

Tiny room that it was, Sherlock knew that everyone had witnessed the small declaration. But John was smiling at him and allowed Sherlock to run his hand through his hair until the paramedics came, so that information was deemed irrelevant.


Posted by: Disastrolabe (disastrolabe)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 04:22 am (UTC)

I just died from adorableness! (Best way to go out, hands down!)

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 05:31 am (UTC)

I totally agree, best way to go! Thank you! :D

Posted by: your_icequeen (ladyredcrest)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 05:00 am (UTC)
Benedict Rawr

This is good. I wish you would write the prequel to it.

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 05:32 am (UTC)

Ohh, I'm glad you're interested enough for a prequel. We shall see, if I ever get inspiration for one, maybe I'll write it. ; ) Thank you so much!

Posted by: xixie (xixie)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 06:46 am (UTC)
RE: what she said
big wolf

I agree with your_icequeen. A sequel would rock.

Funny story, we're actually lying in bed reading fanfic, and I just turned her and mentioned your fic. She was all like, "I just commented on that fic; I told her to write a sequel."

So here I am, seconding her motion.

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 02:51 pm (UTC)
Re: what she said

I think I may have to write a sequel sometime in the future, a few ideas are already kicking around in my brain. :D

Thank you both so much!

Posted by: tactile_contact (tactile_contact)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 05:14 am (UTC)

Totally adorable! :D Loved it!

And holy effin' crap! You're listening to The Antlers?!?!?!?! *dies of happiness* I was beginning to think I was the only who did. Hospice is a brilliant album!

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 05:33 am (UTC)

Thank you! :D

Oh my god, Epilogue is STILL murdering me right now. I can't even with that song. *dies* Seriously, Hospice is amazing! I only know like two other people who listen to The Antlers, I can't believe more people haven't. They're so brilliant.

Posted by: tactile_contact (tactile_contact)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 06:53 pm (UTC)

They really are incredible! They'll have a new album out this May, and I'm dying to hear it! It's just a shame that mainstream radio doesn't have enough guts to showcase artists like The Antlers, who really encapsulate artistry, innovation and passion in the work.

You know, I may be crazy, but I sometimes listen to Hospice and think it would make a spectacular basis for an extreme and dark Sherlock/John AU. Like, a few years post-TGG, and Sherlock hasn't yet met John. After collapsing at a crime scene, it's discovered that he has inoperable brain tumors, and they're not responding to treatment. His health declines quickly. Mycroft hires John to care for Sherlock, and John and Sherlock's relationship follows the events of the Hospice album, with Sherlock suffering from severe depression, delusions and horrible mood swings that make him physically violent and emotionally vulnerable in turns, and John choosing to stay and deal with it all until the very end.

I mean, seriously. When you hear the Atrophy lyrics:

Little porcelain figurines, glass bullets you shoot at the walls...

You can't not think of Sherlock. Or:

I'd happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself...

And not think of John. ;)

Edited at 2011-03-27 07:02 pm (UTC)

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 07:26 pm (UTC)

THERE'S GONNA BE A NEW ALBUM? *promptly dies of happiness*

Oh my god, I do the EXACT same thing! I seriously think of them when I listen to Hospice. And I would read that AU in a heartbeat. Guhhh, now I'm brainstorming fic ideas to Hospice because I NEED to write something to it.

*puts Atrophy on* Lyriiics. It's so THEM. <3

Posted by: tactile_contact (tactile_contact)
Posted at: March 29th, 2011 04:22 am (UTC)

Due out on May 10th, of I'm not mistaken, called Burst Apart. ;) They've also just announced a small handful of tour dates.

Oh thank the Primes, I'm not the only one! XD The whole album (maybe aside from Bear...) could just totally be them! I've been half tempted, at least a dozen times, to start on that AU. But I'm just not sure I'm confident enough with their characters to attempt writing it. :\ But OMGuh, if you write to that, I am sooooo THERE!!!!!

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 30th, 2011 12:30 am (UTC)

Heee, I can't wait. :D Too bad the tour's not coming to my state, I'd love to go.

Seriously, it needs to be written! Man, I wish I could write it. Maybe someday I will, this summer maybe. *crosses fingers*

*high five for awesome musical tastes*

Posted by: tactile_contact (tactile_contact)
Posted at: March 31st, 2011 04:22 pm (UTC)

*high-fives you back* Seriously!

And YAY!!! for potential Hospice-verse!SHERLOCK ficcings!

Posted by: rabidsamfan (rabidsamfan)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 05:48 am (UTC)
bbc john

Aw, poor spaced out John. Small wonder Sherlock's too worried to be embarrassed.

Even if Lestrade is!

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 05:56 am (UTC)

Poor John. <333

LOL, poor awkward Lestrade! He's all get me out of here, but still worried for John at the same time. xD

Thank you!

Posted by: fragileobject (fragileobject)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 07:24 am (UTC)

It's soooo lovely, thank you!

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 02:49 pm (UTC)

Thank YOU! :D

Posted by: batgurl10 (batgurl10)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 01:51 pm (UTC)

I adore woobie john more than is probably healthy..lol and this was some gooood stuff! Personally, I would love a sequel too "afterwards" though not before with sherlock helping a still spacy/loopy john and he just wants a sherlock cuddle. =)

really enjoyed this.

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 02:50 pm (UTC)

Oh, I looove woobie John. <333

A few people seem to be wanting a sequel of some sorts, so I think I might have to write one! No idea when I will though.

Thank you so much!

Posted by: Elf (blaidd_drwg)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 07:20 pm (UTC)
Sherlock_What's in style

Drugged!John blurting out that Sherlock loves him was so adorable. :)

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 27th, 2011 08:01 pm (UTC)

I thought so too. : ) Thank you!!

Posted by: Jenny (tunes84)
Posted at: March 30th, 2011 01:01 am (UTC)


Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: March 30th, 2011 02:07 am (UTC)


Posted by: Lavellington (lavellington)
Posted at: April 10th, 2011 10:09 pm (UTC)

Aw, how cute! I love uncomfortable Lestrade and drugged John. And I especially love uncomfortable yet affectionate Sherlock. Feelings, Sherlock- you have them. Deal with it. :)

Posted by: patster223 (patster223)
Posted at: April 11th, 2011 03:10 am (UTC)

LOL, I would love John telling Sherlock that he has feelings and to, "Deal with it." xP Totally agree with you there, he has them, even if he doesn't show it. : )

Thank you!!

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